As the Earth Wind and Fire song played in my mind, I eagerly anticipated the arrival of my little one, with a due date of September 21st, 2022. Excitement filled my days, and I decided to document my pregnancy journey on TikTok, sharing the ups and downs, the milestones, and the sheer wonder of creating life. My followers became a supportive community, cheering me on and eagerly awaiting the arrival of my baby.
But life had other plans. Tragically, my sweet baby girl passed away just three days after her birth. The pain and grief I experienced were beyond words. It felt as if my world had shattered into a million pieces. In the depths of my sorrow, I knew I had to find a way to heal and honor my baby's memory.
Amidst the darkness, a flicker of light emerged. I made the courageous decision to transform my grief into creativity, channeling my emotions into a new TikTok page focused on trying to conceive. The pain of loss was transformed into a beacon of hope, as I connected with others who shared similar experiences.
The journey to conceive a rainbow baby is filled with uncertainty, hope, and resilience. Each month, as my husband and I embark on a new cycle, we face a rollercoaster of emotions. But through it all, we remain steadfast in our determination, supporting one another and finding solace in the strength of our online community.
Cycle Six: A New Chapter of Hope:
As I write this blog, my husband and I are embarking on our sixth cycle; our first medicated cycle. The road has been long, filled with highs and lows, but we refuse to lose hope. The support and encouragement we receive from our followers and the wider online community fuel our determination and belief that our rainbow baby will one day grace our lives.
To those who have experienced loss or are struggling to conceive, I want you to know that you are not alone. Together, we can find strength, support, and the resilience to navigate this challenging journey. Let us come together, share our stories, uplift one another, and
celebrate the triumphs, no matter how small they may seem.
If you’re experiencing a loss currently, have recently experienced one, or never processed a loss you had in the past, please consider joining the weekly pregnancy and infant loss support group by Rachel’s Gift. It’s currently held on Thursdays at 7pm EST via Zoom. This free group is open to both or either partner (men and women) and their family members. The group is led by licensed counselors and social workers and is a safe space to grieve among others who have had similar experiences. It has helped 800 people and counting through their loss journeys since its inception. Sign up today.
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About Elleigh Beck:
With every video and post, I strive to spread awareness, empower individuals and couples on their journey, and break the stigma surrounding pregnancy loss and fertility struggles. I share tips, resources, and stories of hope, all while remaining vulnerable and transparent about my own challenges.